Nirvana

Influencing the Collective Consciousness of the Universe

It was only in the years 2007-2008 that I came to know that I have this power to influence the collective consciousness of the universe. This extraordinary psychic capacity led to tremendous problems in my life in the years 2006-2007 as I did not know that I had this inherent capacity in me. During these times, I was totally at the mercy of the external environment. Then after lot of tribulations and experimentation, it dawned on me that I could affect the psyche of the universe in the way I thought. This might have happened because of my continuous practice of a long-forgotten secretive form of spiritual doctrine called as Mahanirvana Tantra.

Now the Hypothesis at this stage based on my experimentation and practice of this special spiritual doctrine (Mahanirvana Tantra) can be put forward as that is mentioned below.

The Hypothesis:

1.       I can influence the collective psyche of the Universe based on my conscious, subconscious, unconscious and superconscious thoughts. I can pen down these thoughts to make them a reality.

2.       I can interpret my dreams and thoughts and pen them down to make them the reality of the future (for the universe).

3.       I can gain further insight in the workings of my extraordinary abilities which can be expanded to even more powerful realms.

To carry out the experiments for the above mentioned Hypothesis, I shall continue my workings with the Mahanirvana Tantra and other Tantra forms, Human psychology, Psychoanalysis and Dream interpretations. I shall also study the subjects of Intuition, Premonition and the Paranormal.  Further I shall write freely on any issue that comes into my mind and see how it’s going to influence the external environment.  

As I am currently reading The Interpretation of Dreams by Sigmund Freud, I shall immediately start interpreting my dreams and see how it holds a future for the universe. Further I am also in the active process of decoding the Mahanirvana Tantra as translated by John Woodroffe some 100 years back.  I need to find out, how deep the hole is and what are the various hurdles I need to cross and what are the gains that are available towards the ultimate path of liberation.    

Till yesterday, I could recollect all my daily dreams but strangely today, though I am sure I had dreamt twice, but "still" I can’t recollect them. Is it because I decided to pen them down? Let me see it for tomorrow.

Sanjay at Nirvana

Then I have my Shakti

Just as I had thought to finish my day with the last weblog of my day, I had my "ladylove" come online. I chatted with her and told her my feelings for the hundredth time. Though you may have thousand and even a million friends (among the worldly and other hidden creatures of the unknown), the commitment you have made to yourself cannot change. I have this "lady love" from Spain. She is half Italian and half Romanian. We just met on a social networking site called as Hi5 and we just clicked. I just felt that I had rediscovered my lost partner from many lifetimes. I told her so. Though the awakening has happened in me, I need to convince my lady love to understand what I mean. It will take time, but I know that ultimately I shall unite with her. She is my Shakti.

She is mysterious in the sense that she has this uncanny ability to communicate to you in the most unpredictable of ways that is possible and she ends up making you do what she wants. I had observed this ability in her from last 3-4 months of our acquaintance. It’s a phenomenal ability in every possible sense.  Some kind of Psychic phenomenon.      

I cannot “bind” her nor “leave” her irrespective of what happens in the external environment. She has a “choice in life” and I respect that. Hence the choice for her to accept me is her own. But then my stand is also quite clear. If I shall marry ever again, it shall be her and her alone. Nobody else.

It’s kind of challenge that you throw at yourself. It may look like craziness but then being in love is craziness and in this craziness there is a “method” which can take both the individuals to a journey of discovery into the world of the known and the unknown.

Whatever, I may achieve in my life; it would not be but possible without her. Though all women are manifestations of the primordial one, for me she is special in the sense that she is the primordial one herself.   

Sanjay at Nirvana

She is around

I just chatted with this friend of mine an hour back. We have been chatting for last 3-4 months and we have become close in terms of knowing a bit of each other. She said that she would be leaving for Africa in 2-3 months time. She was kind of happy leaving India. Chatting with her, my innermost feelings came out. I just went into an advisory mode and told her that she should not get restricted to being an “Indian” when abroad. I told her categorically that this will restrict her personal growth and integration with the external environment.

I must say that I admire this girl for her physical beauty and the intellectual stimulation she gives me when I chat with her. She has that tinge of arrogance which “also” makes for a combustible mixture.

I had longed to meet her since long but for her otherwise social status, it was always difficult for me to woo her for a personal one to one meeting. (Whether she falls into a particular social category cannot be confirmed and what does she mean by certain “uttering” also cannot be comprehended as social status has different meaning for different people in India.)  But in every sense she is a Yogini and she needs her liberation in every possible manner that does not harm another soul.  With my love, I even called her “Kaulika Radhya” which is one of the many names of Adya Kalika.    

She has promised to look into the matter of things to come in the future and even made arrangements for us to keep in touch in the future. Let’s see how things develop. One thing is sure; if we unite in future it would lead to lot of exchange of energies at the spiritual, mental, intellectual and physical levels. It would lead to discovery of unknown paths and unknown truths of the highest level.

Let’s wait then for the future.

Sanjay at Nirvana

Death of Michael Jackson

As I got up today morning, I had this great urge to write on the events that had happened yesterday especially the death of Michael.  Though I was not a fan of Michael in any sense but his death brought an unusual void in my day to day workings.

Michael had lived a truly remarkable life. He in his own way defined the possibilities and vulnerabilities of human life when seen in light of the impact one makes in the world and moreover the impact that the world makes on an individual psyche.  I would say that the death of Michael Jackson had taken place long back and what happened yesterday was just a formality.

It would have happened sometime in the 1980s when after his remarkable number “beat it” in the album “Thriller”, he would not have enough to give back to the world. Still he went on, but the negative impact on his personal life was taking the toll. Ultimately he died a very isolated and insecure Man in a real mess which was mostly not of his making. This world only knows to take from you, sap you till the end and then throw you in the dustbin to rout.  

An “innocent child” who showed his dream to the world died a “child in pains”. Allegations of an eccentric lifestyle, child molestation and a messy family life: was it all of his making? The world must answer this and pay for the major share of mess that it creates in an individual’s life.

Hope he is in a world of “Never again” at peace with himself. Though writing this piece has not helped me to calm myself, but still at least for the departed soul, this is a small dedication.

Sanjay at Nirvana