Nirvana

Yesterday I went for a Drink

Yesterday on my birthday I went for a drink to a nearby bar which I usually frequent. For me this is a place for deep contemplation and thinking. I go alone to this place. After taking one or two drinks in this place I can always perceive the operation of my unconscious mind (subconscious and superconscious levels). Yesterday after the usual two drinks, I had started thinking about this desire that I had developed from last two months. I see myself in a black robe with my head clean shaven with no hair on them. On my forehead I have red sandal paste in a particular formation depicting the third eye of the universe. I wear a gold symbol on my left chest (upper part) which is in fact a clamping clip which holds my robe together. I wear black footwear of the ancient variety. In this avatar I see myself roaming around the world preaching and speaking about the “Kaula” way of life which espouses a new doctrine of existence.

The transformation has begun. I know that now there is no looking back. I can see the ominous signs of this change. Yesterday my father wished me on my birthday by saying that technically I have finished my first half of life. He was referring to the age that I have reached which is considered in the society as the approximate age of the first half of your life. The signal is loud and clear. It is time for me to move on and complete the transformation that has begun. Worldly and divine beings from various other levels of existence have tried to reverse my path by giving me direct and indirect messages. But I know that I have moved beyond all of them. I can see my existence at the highest level beyond every world that was ever there, is there today or will be there in the future. I can see myself beyond duality and in my darkness I absorb all that existed, that exists and that shall exist in the future. I assimilate the good, the bad and the ugly.

I am beyond time. I am beyond life and death. I exist and I don’t exist.

Sanjay at Nirvana

Today is my Birthday-What is My birthday present to “Myself”?

Today is my Birthday. My birthday present to “myself” is the progress that I have made in understanding the "nature”. This is an irreversible process that has been set in motion and this is the process of my merger with the universe. I have started flowing with the "nature" and as I flow in this path my goal for ultimate liberation seems to be a logical conclusion of this arduous journey. Liberating “nature” from her bonds and identifying her with the supreme soul has been the "revelation" of last two months work.

 

Let me carry on further and let me imbibe her unlimited powers for destruction of the "putrid" and creation of a new order based on the  universal laws of existence.      

 

Sanjay at Nirvana     

The High courts and the Supreme court of India

I have admired the Higher courts of India very much. The higher courts in India include the High courts and the Supreme court of India. From last many years I have keenly observed various landmark judgements given by these courts on various issues of personal and national interest. They are seen as the final interpreters of the constitution of the land. The higher courts have enjoyed good public support for their landmark and path breaking judgements. In this context I would love to see their continuing active role in terms of upholding the rights of every citizen of the country. This includes the fundamental rights (which should be expanded further) and freedom to information and expression of thoughts.

 

Moreover there is an urgent need for the active role of the Higher courts of India for ushering in reforms in the area of Police, Bureaucracy, Law, Education and the constitution itself. We cannot go on living with a constitution that has been written 60 years back based on the laws and rules that has been written 200 years ago by the British to control and rule (by force) the Indian native population. It’s time for a complete overhauling of the constitution of India. A debate must start towards this end and the Higher courts of India should take the lead in this direction. This is necessary as much cannot be expected to get initiated or happen through the other pillar arms (because of vested interests) of the nation.   

 

Sanjay at Nirvana

Getting married and having a family-Why we do it?

I did a practical blunder in terms of getting married the first time. I must candidly admit that I went into the marriage with “sex” as one of the main criteria. I kept my virginity till my marriage (33 years) because of ignorance and faith in a false premise that sexuality is best to be explored inside a marriage. Later I understood the hard way that “sex” cannot be the criteria to get into a marriage. I feel sorry for the majority of my countrymen (and women) as they enter into a marriage exactly on the same premise that I had entered into. (Some will accept but many will deny this fact on the face).  Once they enter into such a marriage then they face the “repercussions” and the “fall out” of a false belief system.

 

Our society is based on structures that penalises sexual expression outside marriage. Though I had number of opportunities before marriage to get into a full sexual relationship but I backed off every time because of a lurking fear in my mind created by a strong moral system established by the society. I was bonded to it even without consciously knowing about it.

 

I am not “against” or “for” Marriage but my advice to others based on my personal experience is very straight. Don’t get into Marriage if “Sex” is the primary criteria. Never ever do it. It would be far better to satisfy your genuine sexual needs (sex with a purpose) outside Marriage. Thereafter you can think aloud whether you need “Marriage” for any other reason apart from Sex.

 

I am writing what “you” have in your mind. So don’t feel bad about it. Face the truth with courage and determination as that will help you in understanding the “real person” that you really are. 

 

Sanjay at Nirvana

The Candid admission by the President of Pakistan Mr. Asif Ali Zardari about the root cause of terrorism in his country

It was heartening to see Mr. Zardari accept the fact that (last week in one of the televised media events) the root cause of terrorism in his country could be traced back to the tactical blunder of the “State” in terms of encouraging terrorist outfits in the past against the Soviets and the Indians. America had a great role along with Pakistan in creating the monster called as “Terrorism” and it has sadly got back in kind (9/11 and more) for what it had sown in the past.

 

I hope Taliban would be neutralized completely and this is the War I would sincerely want Pakistan and America to Win. Best wishes to them.

 

Sanjay at Nirvana 

The relevance or irrelevance of the Western form of economic development

You can either love the West or hate it or you can do both at the same time. You have to accept the contributions of the Western world in terms of the technological and scientific revolution that they have ushered in. But then they had their opportunity and this opportunity was built on hundreds of years of exploitation of the rest of the world. They colonised ancient civilizations across the world, they diverted resources from these lands for their own growth and they made “slaves” of people from different places for running their industry and economy. This is their heritage that they cannot ignore nor deny.

 

Today they still consume most of the world’s available resources and they have slaves of different type for their industrial produce (most of them trash) and these slaves are the blind consumers from the rest of the world. The Western world went on selling and ultimately their selling frenzy reached to such a level that they started selling on loans. Welcome to the world of borrowed life. If we closely analyze we would know that the actual economy of the world is not even half of actually what it is shown to be. The rest is a myth created on loans and borrowings. There is nothing in actuality that exists. Every individual living in the modern world is living on loans of different hues and colours. Every corporation worth its name in this world survives on “push” sales. The “push” sales generate a mythical final figure which is “six times” of the actual demand in the market.

 

But I am happy that the events of the past few years including the human conflict over resources, environmental disasters and the recent financial meltdown has ultimately made the West to sit up and think about its economic model. Just last week we had the G-8 meet in Italy and leaders of the G-8 were kind of ashamed to attend this meet as they had no face to show to the world. They are no more the symbol of progress and development of the world.

 

Another defunct body is the UN. It’s a joke that the winners of the World War-II still control the decisions made on behalf of the rest of the world even after 60 years of the war. How long the winners of the war want to milk the world? Superpowers have ceased to exist. United States and the so called Western powers are on decline. We can see this by analyzing their influence on today’s world. The time is good for a new multilateral world order to emerge from this chaos. Maybe the world needs a parallel grouping similar to the UN if the so called “top 5” refuse to budge.           

 

Coming back to the central theme of this writing I sincerely hope that we can soon witness the dawn of a new era which is based on a new economic model which encourages sustainable economic development within the laws of nature. I believe that the West can contribute in a big way for this to happen as they have learned their lessons (hopefully so) and are ready to take up the change. This is not true for the rest of the world. They are still struck in the consumption bandwagon and will need a bit more of education from “nature” before they understand the reality.

Sanjay at Nirvana  

Unrest in Kashmir from last one month

The Kashmir problem is something which I have never understood from the beginning itself. I would not go into the historical details of the past but recently we had elections in the state with the highest possible voter turnout and a new government was "sworn in" with the clearest possible mandate from the people. Then in the month of June 2009 two girls died in mysterious circumstances in Shopian and this lead to wide spread public unrest.  Public demonstrations continued in the valley on this case and every other incident that happened thereafter.

 

Now the big question is: who are the people who are actually committing the crime and who are the strategists sitting pretty behind the scene? The Government and the forces operating in the valley are on a back foot as they have fallen in the "trap" and have continuously led themselves into one or more blunders in every incident since Shopian happened.

 

Sanjay at Nirvana            

Riots in Chinese province Xinjiang Autonomous Region of western China that took place last week

The President of China Hu Jintao leaving the G-8 meet at Italy to rush back home was the most astonishing event (for me) that unfolded last week. This happened after riots broke out (July 05) in Urumqi, a downtown in Xinjiang province of China between the migrant majority community of Han Chinese and the region’s native Muslim Uighur minority. These riots led to the death of more than 140 people mostly in police firing.    

 

There are many angles to this kind of situation developing in any part of the world. It ranges from the frustration of people from authoritarian regimes which wants to control the natural resources of a region to a general tendency in people to identify themselves with land and worldly possessions. All conflicts that has happened in the past and that is happening today is for “land” and the “natural resources” of the world. Terrorism and other forms of conflict are based on the presumption that land (natural resources) is what that has to be ultimately possessed by any means. The conflict is given religious or other kind of tone but ultimately the two parties (or more) involved in the game are looking for the control of the natural resources that is available at stake.

 

It’s difficult to judge this type of situation because today it may be happening somewhere else but tomorrow it can happen in my own backyard. Human conflicts will only increase in the coming days as we are witnessing a great mismatch between the limited resources of the world and the unlimited human urge for consumption. 

 

Sanjay at Nirvana

Freedom of Sexual expression and my Sexual orientation

I am trying to rediscover “sex” for the sake of true sex. I don’t want to give it another name and limit it in the "finite structures" created by the society. I want to discover how “sex” can help me achieve ultimate liberation from the bondage of life. If “Sex” can help me reach this purpose (ultimate liberation) then it has a meaning for me. On the other hand if it cannot help me in my progress towards ultimate liberation then it has no meaning for me. I don’t want to get struck with the concepts of “love” (worldly definition of love) and “marriage” to experience “sex” as this form of sex would not lead to the revelation of the real power behind sex.

 

I believe that freedom of sexual expression is the most soothing experience one can have if it is directed towards a higher purpose. In that sense my sexual expression and my sexual orientation has a spiritual connotation. I am in search for partner(s) who represent the “exact fit” for my inclinations and deviations. Sex for me is worshiping my partner therefore I am in search for a “true woman (women)” who has (have) a natural inclination for getting worshiped. She (they) should be the “initiated” one(s). I get my powers by worshiping and she (they) should get her (their) powers by getting worshiped.

 

This inclination should not be considered as the typical form of “femdom” as it is definitely not about domination and submission. I must admit here as a matter of fact that I cannot live by being submissive to anybody. Therefore when I am thinking about “sexual union” with my partner(s) I am thinking about mutually beneficial engagement for higher spiritual awakening. I long for a partner(s) with whom I can talk matters of intelligence and experiment the power of sexuality. It’s unfortunate that I have not met a single woman till now who can be considered of that higher calibre.

 

Maybe I have set very high standards but I find it necessary to have such high standards as physical sex based on the norms and structures of today’s society “repulse” me to no end.  In this repulsive category comes all forms of sex which includes sex based on worldly definition of love or sex in a marriage or sex based on physical attraction (lust) or sex that is commercially available.  On an impulse I may fall prey to these forms of sexual activity as I am also a human being but then the aftershocks and side effects are considerably painful and disastrous to bear. 

 

I hope that this writing shall help me work towards my path of progress and will act as continuous reminder in revealing  “as to who I am” not only to "me" but also to "others" who wish to come close to me. This is one of the many preventive steps that I am taking to avoid impulsive, inconsequential and purposeless physical relationships that I can develop with the opposite sex.

 

Sanjay at Nirvana

The movie called as the 11th hour

This film comes in a definite “must see” list as it opens up our awareness to a very high level. We can end up asking lot of questions to ourselves once we have seen this movie. The most striking point that has captured my imagination from this movie called as “the 11^th hour” is the fact that we the “human race” are trying to achieve unlimited growth in a “limited environment” offered to us in the form of nature and it’s fast depleting resources. In the quest for unlimited growth we are consuming anything and everything that is coming in our way.

 

We human beings have become a “pest” which spreads at lightning speed and consumes everything that is in its path. Our population has tripled in last 100 years and it has doubled in last 60 years. Unimaginable! Our actions are leading us to the ultimate destruction of the fragile environment that we are living in. We have embarked upon the path of unsustainable growth. Future is bleak unless we change now.

 

Sanjay at Nirvana